You want me to forgive? make people who intentionally harmed me feel good? NO NOOOOOOOO.
One day of the so many breaks down days of mine my therapist told me I promise you can forgive but you will never forget which is ok you will live and be productive with that, but you need to forgive for you to be the person you want to be!
The days passed and I was trapped HOW for God’s sake can I let go and forgive someone for hurting and humiliating me that much?
I reached a stage where I screamed to my therapist ‘’ where did you study that these things can be forgotten? this is not possible you want me to accept what happened to me is it ok??
I must tell you this journey of realization took from my soul and stole from my lovely days of enjoying my youth, my achievements and most of all my children grow up….
And here we come it’s me not them! Forgiveness is giving up the hope that the past could be any different we cannot change the past it’s a waste of YOU, but we can make a different future, I’m sorry this has happened and it’s not ok, but it is what it is. So we have to look at what is possible form here onwards.
Whatever is the experience its only part of you not all of you, If you continue today based on yesterday, then tomorrow will be a continuity of yesterday don’t expect anything different
Is it easy? No but you need to break the past to have a different decision for the future, release feelings of resentments towards those who did you bad regardless of they actually deserve forgiveness or not you deserve the relief, Rumi said yesterday I was clever today I’m wise! so think of what Your wellbeing.
who knows what’s good and what’s bad?
– How is not forgiving hurting the one who did bad to you?
– What is trying to happen?
– When are you aware that you had a moment of forgiveness? What’s the difference between forgiveness and forgetfulness?